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Sometimes I wished I do not let my emotions take over my actions. It is tiring somehow to fit in today's society. So hectic and miserable. No one understands the anxiety that I am constantly feeling. Almost degrading myself. Pretty tiring. Still surviving anyway. Fucked but always on-the-go.

Chaotic 2020

A happy friggin new year everybody. The way some of us go through a decade already,  which is kinda terrifying. As I always mention in my blog, time flies without us getting to stop or pause. The end of 2019 was rather fun but also chaotic. I got to travel to Bangkok, Thailand. I have to say it really changed my perspective on how a city can grow so rapidly. Me being the city girl sucker I am, really really really dream much more on visiting New York one day, for real. Ever since I was a child, I have always wanted to live "the life" in NYC. (Honestly I have drafted this post since January and now I am diving right into writing smth) It's March and the world out there isn't of a great. The global epidemic COVID-19 is hitting the world and as well as affecting where I stay. Every country is facing its crisis and this virus is definitely driving everyone insane. Some sacrificed, some holding on, some struggling...  I really wished life could go back to what it was b

2019 Log

Hello, my blog of unknown. I just had the urge to start typing out what's going on my life, well some updates and thoughts. Behold bunch of brain dumps. I am currently a law degree student at a university. It's pretty scary to say time really just passed by like that, it was just like yesterday I just graduated from high school. College was terrifying (thanks to a-levels) but I had met the nicest bunch of people, who are now my best friends. Now, it is the reality that I had moved to the next chapter of my life. I have moved out of my home in Penang to a whole new place in PJ, Selangor. It is rather strange that I've been dreaming of this day to live in a city, to experience things that I could never get to see and do (prolly more about the lifestyle here that has always made me loved a city life). People here in the city are not really quite friendly, b-but I gotta say there are nice people anyway. I made a few friends in uni? I guess. It's hard and complicated

Dec 18' Log

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2018 is definitely coming to an end. I am back to this blogging business (hoho). Well actually, it's somehow just dropping by to write something for my blog? So, been seeing some friends talking about their this year new year resolutions, goals and whatnot. For me, overall this year has been rather peaceful so thank god I'm grateful about this. There are obviously some little hardships but on the other hand, there are hopes as well. Life is all about ups and downs for us to face it, endure it and solve it.  A rewind: started my year with holidays cause I finished high school, went for a part-time job (still do), got my disappointing SPM result still made it to college for A-Levels, made new friends & they're such great humans, bonded more with old friends this year, ate a lot?, fought with people obviously, watched a lot of movies?, didn't read much (ugh), went places, made time for family... ah yes, there's a big change this year as i fell in love with

College

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Bet the title explains, I've been in college for half a year already, for now. Honestly, it has been a great journey stepping out from my comfort zone. Things like going separate ways from high school friends, taking up art stream subjects which are whole new, travelling across the island to study by driving alone (yes, I stay in mainland and study at Penang Island by driving to and forth daily). Don't worry, if you are wondering all my friends have been giving me the 'shook' face when I first told I drive from mainland every single day to college. Hell yeah I am a safe driver alright plus gone through all the phases of traffic jams made me a more 'mature' driver??? Basically, I took up Cambridge A-Levels with the subjects of Business, Law, Psychology. First things first, CAL is definitely tough as heck but I will never regret my choice cause I really learnt a lot of things tbh. Second, if I didn't take CAL, I wouldn't meet such great fri

안녕

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This is a major throwback. Hi, Korea.

Too Late

it's been very very long since i last blogged. i decide that i need a space to write my real shit out. hopefully i can write in a day????? i have a very frightened feeling right now. the realisation that not even one month to SPM, final exam after all these years in secondary school. definitely not ready, and much too late that i regret for slacking and being overly lazy for the past year. last year already gave me a huge attack that i should be more alert and put effort in my studies. unfortunately, tick tock... i am still here standing at range one. i haven't moved, maybe i did, but a little. i see the distractions affecting me badly. they've been consuming my time and my energy. to be really honest, they come from every way. school, family, friends, entertainment etc all are completely leading my life as if i'm a puppet myself. at this point, i realise i shouldn't have cared so much. i gave in too much shit and now it's me the one loosing. i overthink about